Until the last couple of years I have never been the sort of person to jump at the opportunity to get my photo taken. I think it had a lot to do with self-image and body confidence (which was pretty much non-existent during my teenage years). I don’t think it was the actually photo taking that always made me uncomfortable, but more the resulting photographs. There were occasions though, where I was uncomfortable about having my portrait taken when I was in settings when I was unfamiliar with the photographer or setting.
Through my teenage years and up till recently I have struggled with my appearance and how mainly my weight and teeth were influencing what my peers thought of me. When I was younger I was teased about my weight which never helped when it came to having photos taken as I “knew” they would just turn out bad. My teeth were also not very straight and I had a bit of a cross bite which just got worse as I got older. This made a lot of problems for me mentally which over the last couple of years I have been working on.
However in the last couple of years my own perspective has changed and I have become more confident in the way I look. Once I was out of high school it was a lot easier to come to grips with just loving myself as I am and not changing myself to be someone who I’m not. I realised that I plenty enough friends who were positive about not only the way I looked but just loved me because of who I am inside. Although I am still working on some body image issues overall I feel a lot better about life.
“What has this got to do with me having to do a photoshoot?” you say. Well I have now done two photoshoots in the last couple of years and at the end of each one I have just felt so confident about myself and the buzz lasts for at least a couple of weeks. Both times I have worked with people who are my friends and have done everything to make me happy and comfortable as we work.
I really do believe that, for someone with a history of having bad body image associations with having photos taken of themselves, doing a photoshoot with someone you know and are comfortable around can be one of the most confidence boosting things to do. As you can probably tell I loved both photoshoots I have done. I feel like because I knew the person I was working with, and they knew me, my personality really came out through the photos, evens if I don’t know how to “pose” sometimes.
Having a photoshoot done was also a real bonus for the blog as Yana managed to get some awesome shots of my makeup. And yes, I may have written this post to show you guys the photos she took of me. No I am not trying to be vain but I want you to see how uplifting this experience was for me and hope if could be the same for you!
So have you ever done a photoshoot? What was your experience like. I want to hear the good (and the bad).